Uncertain Futures

I’m 28, and I have no idea what I am doing.

Seriously.

I know a lot of people my age say that. Even some older than myself may say the same thing.

But I don’t have my act together. I don’t know what I am doing.

This is coming from someone, from an outside perspective, has done some pretty amazing things. I have traveled the world. I have lived in another country. I have friends from many countries. These are some things that others my only dream about.

And yet, some of those people, I am jealous of them. For some that may be hard to imagine. Is it crazy that I want something as normal as close friends, a decent job, and a family? Is it crazy that I just want something normal?

And yet, normal feels out of my grasp. A lot of things feel like they are out of my grasp. Try as I might, I just can’t seem to get a firm footing in life.